Journal of Mistress Kat

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Better post this now before this year's fics start appearing...

Well, I did not manage my getyourwordsout goal (largely because after Tricks I just stopped writing for six weeks) but I did reach total of over 100k though only 57k posted on AO3. I also passed 500 works on AO3 and in 2026 I will almost certainly pass 1 million words. 


Fics published in 2025 by Fandom:
(I've only provided AO3 links cos I'm lazy, but all are readable on DW too, let me know if you'd like a link. My AO3 is locked for users only but if anyone needs AO3 invites please let me know, I have plenty)

American Idol RPF
Trial (Kris/Adam, G, 100 words)

ATEEZ
Whispers (Kim Hongjoong/Park Seonghwa + Park Seonghwa/OMC, G, 100 words)

방탄소년단 | Bangtan Boys | BTS
First Spark (Namjoon/Yoongi, G, 100 words)
Metamorphosis (OT7/ambiguous relationships, G, 544 words)

Being Human
Home (Mitchell/George/Annie, T, 100 words)

Buzzfeed Unsolved/Watcher Entertainment
Awkward (Ryan/Shane, G, 100 words)
Better the Demon You Know (Ryan/Shane, M, 6422 words)

Cobra Starship
electric dreams (Ryland/Alex, G, 100 words)

Doctor Who
Mercury Lane (Tenth Doctor/The Master (Simm), G, 1134 words)

Enola Holmes
Courting (Un)Conventions (Enola/Tewkesbury + Sherlock/John, G, 837 words)

Fall Out Boy
Price (Patrick/Pete, T, 100 words)

Firefly
Grow Together (Kaylee/River/Simon, G, 501 words)

Given (Anime)
Second Chance (Kaji Akihiko/Nakayama Haruki + Satou Mafuyu/Uenoyama Ritsuka, T, 5517 words)

Guardian RPF
Closer (Bai Yu/Zhu Yilong, T, 2072 words)
no finer details than yours (Bai Yu/Zhu Yilong, T, 905 words)

Hansel and Gretel: Witch Hunters
Choice (Gretel/Hansel, T, 100 words)

Harry Potter
A Kiss (Bellatrix, M, 100 words)

The Hobbit
Together (Fili/Kili G, 100 words)

K.A.R.D (Band)
like what you (don’t) see (Matthew Kim | BM/Kim Taehyung | J.Seph + Kim Taehyung | J.Seph/OMC, G, 720 words)

Life on Mars
Boiling Point (Sam, G, 100 words)
Year of the Cat (Gene/Sam, G, 2111 words)

The Lost Boys
Flashback (Michael/Sam, T, 2553 words)

MCU
Shatter (Bruce/Tony, T, 100 words)

My Chemical Romance
Dribble (Gerard/Frank, E, 1142 words)

Original Work
climbin’ up to reach your land (OMC/OMC, T, 3291 words)
(i’ma) make a move (OFC/OFC, T, 2789 words)
Tribute (OFC/OMC, T, 2059 words)

Panic! at the Disco
Mismatched Magic (Ryan/Spencer, G, 100 words)
safe landing (Ryan/Spencer, G, 1035 words)

Person of Interest
Ruin (Finch/Reese, G, 100 words)

Primeval
Celebrate Tonight (Nick/Stephen, G, 1295 words)

SEVENTEEN
Thorns (Kwon Soonyoung | Hoshi/Lee Jihoon | Woozi, G, 100 words)

Stargate Atlantis
Midnight Tea (Teyla, G, 100 words)
Protector (Lorne/Sheppard, T, 2248 words)

Star Trek: Alternate Original Series
Antigen (Kirk/Bones, T, 2111 words)

Stray Kids
Summoned (Bang Chan/Seo Changbin, G, 100 words)
when to fold’em (Bang Chan/Yang Jeongin | I.N + Han Jisung | Han/Lee Minho | Lee Know, M, 1392 words)

Supernatural
Struggle (Sam/Dean, T, 100 words)
Veil (Bobby, G, 100 words)

Wheel of Time
Architect (Rand/Elayne, G, 163 words)
Burgeoning (Nynaeve, G, 100 words)
Patience (Bair & Egwene, G, 191 words)
Vernal (Aviendha, G, 737 words)

The Witcher
The Winter of Our Contentment (Geralt/Jaskier, T, 4581 words)

阴阳师 | Yīn Yáng Shī | The Yin-yang Master (Movies - Guo Jingming)
touch me slow, touch me sure (Bo Ya/Qing Ming, E, 8984 words)

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Meme Question

Leitmotifs of the year:
- Return of the Drabble
- Is This Original Fic I See?
- Old Fandoms, New Fandoms
- Gifting Things

Most popular story:
By every AO3 metric: The Winter of Our Contentment, because The Witcher fandom is still active af apparently.
Observation 1. This was the year I archive-locked all my fic and the overall drop in hits, kudos and comments compared to last year has been noticeable. Why are people still relying on reading without an account when the invite codes are relatively easy to get?
Observation 2. The second most popular fic by hits is Dribble which is a filthy pwp. I'm amused by the difference between the kudos to hit ratio between this and The Winter of Our Contentment, ~10% vs ~27%, which suggests that many people are apparently reluctant to make it known that they read and liked filthy porn. Which is hilarious to me. Baby, this is fandom, let go of your shame. 

My best story this year:
Metamorphosis for the theme. Better the Demon You Know and Protector for the world-building. when to fold'em and Vernal for the voices. Mercury Lane for the sense of place. Antigen for the concept. climbin' up to reach your land as a personal favourite.

Hardest story to write:
I struggled with the ending of the climbin' up to reach your land quite a bit. Emotionally speaking, probably Metamorphosis.

Easiest story to write:
Most of the drabbles I wrote in one sitting, often one after another, and it was good to get back to that instant sense of accomplishment. like what you (don't) see I wrote in one sitting too after being smacked by the MV. Year of the Cat was also a quick write. And Second Chance came out pretty quickly under deadline pressure. (i'ma) make a move was a fun breezy fluff piece.

Story most underappreciated by the universe, in my opinion:
Ugh, idk... Metamorphosis? But like it was never going to get a lot of attention given the theme and the ambiguous relationships. Maybe climbin' up to reach your land as I think it would appeal to anyone who's into incest-ships. Tribute has a bad ass female war general. Just saying.

Most fun story to write:
I had fun with a lot of the drabbles, but especially Awkward, Together, Mismatched Magic

Fluffiest story:
Mismatched Magic, no finer details than yours, Year of the Cat (kittens! scampering!). Actually The Winter of Out Contentment is pretty damn fluffy, seeming as it's essential 4,5k of huddling for warmth. Erm, okay, safe landing. (i'ma) make a move is cotton candy. Fuck, listen, fluff and angst are like my bread and butter.

Most angsty story:
*points above* But maybe Metamorphosis takes the win here too we it's high on hurt, thin on comfort. Special mentions to Whispers, Veil, Shatter, electric dreams, like what you (don't) see, Antigen (though has a hopeful ending)

Sexiest story:
For outright porn, Dribble. For slow burn and an extended, gentler sex scene with touch starvation and first time feels, touch me slow, touch me sure

"Holy crap, that's wrong, even for you" story:
Ehhhh *waves hand* Idk, there were some morally grey fics (when to fold'em) and plenty of incest (Flashback, Choice, climbin' up to reach your land, Struggle, Grow Together) but maybe A Kiss. For the sadism.

Biggest Disappointment:
As always, not finishing some of the longer wips, or poetry really though I did get back to that a little bit. I stopped writing entirely for about six weeks after losing Tricks, and I'm not like disappointed about that per se, just acknowledging that it happened and I'm still slowly coming back.

Biggest Surprise:
I did not expect to a) write in an anime fandom and b) for that to go as well as it did, so for Second Chance to get into a fourth place of 'most popular' was fun to watch. Writing as much Original Fic as I did.

Most Unintentionally Telling Story:
Idk, nothing where I brought clear receipts... Wait, wait, I did, sort of, for Celebrate Tonight. (no, not for that!). I also don't think I wrote anything particularly unexpected. Ooooh Kat likes power dynamics! What a surprise...

Best summary?
I've used a quote from the fic as a summary for almost every single one this year so mostly what's left is this:

( Best First Line - I refuse to pick just one )



( Best Last Line? - Lines. LineSSSS )



( Favourite line/passage of the year? - sorry not sorrrrrrryyyyyyyyyyy )



Story I haven't yet written, but intend/hope to:
I've signed up for getyourwordsout with the same goal (150k) that I failed to reach this year, largely because I love their spreadsheet an unholy amount. I'm hoping to finish and post some of the longer wips, either the ones I'm writing alone, or the numerous shared stories with dreamersdare and I want to get some of the Unmarked Place fics (bandom bdsm au co-written with pushkin666 ) to AO3. I'm currently just playing around with fandomtrees fics.


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Two days left of my holiday and I've gone fully feral, just eating pizza and writing porn/fic in my underpants. 

Anyway. 

Is anyone bored enough to SPAG check any of these for me?
1. 2,4k Lost Boys, Michael/Sam, sequel to this
2. 1k MCR, Gerard/Frank, pure porn, very E rated
3. 3.6k The Witcher, Geralt/Jaskier, mostly fluffy feels

I've also been working on the SKZ BDMS!AU but that's currently for the co-author dreamersdare's eyes only, soz. 

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Here's another thing that is making me froth at the mouth:




Let us not even talk about the unveil tracks. For mental health reasons. 

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Anyway, TXT's latest album is also getting some repeat listens from me. I am, particularly in love with

Yeonjun's solo which is extremely catch. Also I spent most of the video trying to figure where in the UK it was filmed. I default to London but am not actually sure here. 


The absolute surprise favourite of the album, for me, however, was Taehyun's Bird of Night that had my bottom lip wobbling. The lyrics.



Special mention to the absolutely stunning cinematography in Beomguy's solo though. The song, whilst pretty, didn't really hit with me, but the visuals inside the hot air balloon are amazing:



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And in other type of music related news:


Ahhhhhhhhh! In UK cinemas from 26th of Sep. Like I have seen it on Disney already but I will still fucking go see it on the big screen. 

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And finally, because I discovered this accidentally via the YT comments on the above trailer



I am not like, a furry on the main, but let me tell you, the first movie made me ship this like the cross-Atlantic trade route. The fic from the first movie was, ahem, good. Well. Some of it. Probably not enough of it tbh, but still. And now there's this. 

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Title: electric dreams
Author:kat_lair
Fandom: Bandom, Cobra Starship
Pairing: Ryland/Alex
Tags: Drabble, Pining, Drunkenness
Rating: G
Word count: 100

Summary: Ryland can count the times he’s seen Alex drunk with one hand.

Author notes: Prompt = title

electric dreams on AO3

(  electric dreams )

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Title: Eye of the Beholder
Author: kat_lair 
Fandom:  Cobra Starship
Pairing: Victoria Asher/Ryland Blackinton/Nate Novarro/Gabe Saporta/Alex Suarez
Tags: Spooktober, Ficlet, Alternative Universe - Creatures & Monsters
Rating: T
Word count: 598

Summary: The fundamental mistake most people make is to assume they can recognise a monster by sight, by its appearances.

Author notes: Spooktober 2024, Day 8/31. Prompt/theme: Monster.

Eye of the Beholder on AO3

( Eye of the Beholder )

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Title: The Principle of Irregularity
Author: dreamersdare, kat_lair, pushkin666 
Fandom: Bandom, My Chemical Romance
Pairing: Gerard/Mikey
Tags: Ficlet, Round Robin, Alternate Universe - Non-Famous, Sibling Incest, Implied/Referenced Incest, it's about the yearning
Rating: T
Word count: 746

Summary: We can none of us be anyone else but who we are.

Author notes: We had a threeway fandom date and, in time-honoured tradition, wrote some round robins. If you can guess who wrote which part you will win... uhh, bragging rights? Title from the quote by Pierre-Auguste Renoir: "One can thus state, without fear of being wrong, that every truly artistic production has been conceived and executed according to the principle of irregularity."

The Principle of Irregularity on AO3

( The Principle of Irregularity )

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Title: cat business
Author: kat_lair 
Fandom: Panic! At The Disco, Bandom
Pairing: Ryan/Spencer
Tags: Alternate Universe - Modern with Magic, Witches, Familiars, Best Friends, Fluff, Cats
Rating: G
Word count: 1,084

Summary: In which the cat is out of the bag. And all over Ryan.

Author notes: pushkin666 wanted a little sequel to a familiar bond so here you have it :)

cat business on AO3


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Wow Kat, what's that sound? Well, glad you asked. It's the sound of me SMASHING through my 75k getyourwordsout goal! BOOM! We're currently >78k and there's still a day to go.

*smug*

Much of the words came from a) co-writing done with dreamersdare and b) because I churned over 24k for Spooktober fics/ficlets, even if some of that churning happened after Christmas lol. Posting most of them back-to-back was a really interesting experience actually and I have some reflections.

( (under the cut, it's all very self indulgent) )


I was always going to do a Spooktober Masterlist for my own amusement. I know I'm about to list all of these for the 2023 Fic Round Up soon (well... Sometime in Jan?) anyway but there everything will be by fandom so let me just induldge my love of lists *pets the list* so, here, Spooktober Fics in posting order (links will take you to AO3 but if you prefer DW for reading, everything is under the spooktober 2023 tag.

( List under a cut due to length! )

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I have signed up getyourwordsout again because I love their spreadsheets. I've gone for the 150k optimistically even though I've never achieved that. It's good to have goals or something?

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Finally, I wanted to flail about being podficced!!

The lovely pezzax_podfics podficced under his wing (TXT, Choi Soobin/Choi Yeonjun) and turned a tiny ficlet into a full-blown audio drama with music and sound effects and it is so, so extremely cool I absolutely lost mine when listening. Also, please appreciate the cover art! (akdkjsj wings!)

The most awesome pieces0fstars podficced Volcano (Stray Kids, Han Jisung/Lee Minho) and holy shit the emotional impact the recording packs... Look, I obviously had a lot of emotions about the concepts which I wrote immediately after the song dropped. But the thing is, I wrote the fic so I knew what was in the fucker and yet, YET, I was absolutely choked up, clutching my heart, because the performance got that exact frayed, desperate edge I tried to convey in words and... Yeah, please listen.

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Title: Ablaze
Author: kat_lair 
Fandom: My Chemical Romance, Bandom
Pairing: Mikey/Gerard
Tags: Ficlet, Alternate Universe - Supernatural Elements, Sibling Incest
Rating: T
Word count: 282
Disclaimer: Make-believe!

Summary: “I’m dangerous,” he says, as if that’s not something Mikey’s known all his life, as if it isn’t why he loves Gerard in every way possible, without limits, dangerously.

Author notes: Spooktober 2023, Day 17/31. Prompt/theme: storm

Ablaze on AO3

( Ablaze )

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1. I have watched season 1 of Rings of Power over the last two days. Very short and spoilery comments under the cut.

( Thoughts )


2. In an interesting contrast and a bit of a critique of the too clearly delianated good/evil order of Tolkien and others (Jordan gets a mention) is this essay on 'Sir Terry and the Gender Auditors' by Christopher Lockett that discusses Pratchett's 'magical humanism' and why it is in fact an anathema to the 'gender fundamentalists' (the author quite brilliantly refuses to use 'gender critical' because 'critical' implies ability and willingness to consider something in all its nuance and complexity, which is the opposite of what the people naming themselves 'gender critical' do and I'll be adopting this stance from now on, thanks) and anyone else who seeks to order and categorise the world and humanity.

3. Stray Kids are openly riffing Guardians of the Galaxy. Firstly, I laughed so much about this I legit cried a bit. Secondly, I fully expect there to be some kind of SKZ/MCU collab in the works because this was done with the confidence of people not afraid of copyright (Deadpool, pls let it be Deadpool).



4. There is only one fandom (to rule them all). Time is a flat circle. Please enjoy this cover of MCR's Black Parady by Xdinary Heroes



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Aaaahhhh! NEW FOB MUSIC, NEW FOB MUSIC!!! This sounds so good, still recognisably them but also something new. I also super enjoyed the MV, special shout out to...

• the book titles ('crime and punisment at the disco', 'where the wild things MCR')
• Pete's braids
• Pete's tank top (what is that, why don't I hate it?)
• Patrick's voice as always
• EMO ISLAND, I CACKLED

Anyway, whilst we are waitng for the new album (end of March drop!!!) Remind yourself just how fucking amazing Patrick sounds live. Every single song I just went 'ngghhh his vooooooooooice'. And of course, starting with Sugar is... *chef's kiss*




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