I AM A MESS

[kat_lair]

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Right, just watched Good Omens 2 and

OMFG!!!! Look, right, we (as in, the fandom, the queers) are not used to actually getting what we want so whilst I was swooning over the significant glances and the numerous hints and 'mistaken for a couple' tropes, and even whilst they went there with Gabriel and Beelzebub in a glaringly obvious parallel, and then especially as Aziraphale interrupted Crowley and I thought okay, it's going to remain unsaid because I did not seriously believe we would actually get this, actually, explicitly on the scene but... NO, NOT ON GAIMAN'S WATCH, WE GET A LOVE CONFESSION!!! AND A DRAMATIC AF KISS!!!!!!!!

You don't understand. Actually, no, you do understand, yes, you. I screamed and scrambled up and almost over the sofa. I woke up the cats. There were tears streaming down my face.

And then, fucking murder as the storyline reached into my chest and pulled out my bleeding heart jasedijweaio'rwafeskl. Yes, I know there's a third and final act. Eventually. But. Just. Meanwhile, SOBBING.


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Comments

[adelate]

I screamed and scrambled up
That sounds exactly like what I did! FJDSKLFSJDFLDSJ!!!!

[kat_lair]

Look. Look, it was already queer in season 1 I don't care what people say and on some level it didn't need this but, ON ANOTHER LEVEL, we got an explicit denial of gender (Crowley saying he's neither in response to 'good lad') and this dramatic ass kiss that I never, never, never thought I would see outside fanfic (let's not talk about The Speech or Tennant's delivery of it because my heart)

[adelate]

Oh it absolutely was! But yeah I also was not expecting the kiss at all and then it started happening almost in slow motion and I was sat on my bed and I just sort of grabbed my pillows and started backing up - like what even was my reaction? but it was REAL.

[kat_lair]

This is very relatable. The speech alone had me clutching at my heart and I legit screeched about the kiss. I have rewatch it all but emotionally I just haven't been ready yet.

[adelate]

Totally understandable!

[moth2fic]

Clearly I shouldn't rrad your posts as this is a sort of spoilrr! But I wasn't actually going to watch soon and you've maybe nudged me...

[kat_lair]

I did say! I did say it was very spoilery in the cut text! But yes, you definitely should. I guess at least you can now emotionally prepare?

[moth2fic]

Well, it might be a while... I much preferred the book though not because of the characters/relationships. And I think the new season of Heartstoppers is calling me...

[mxcatmoon]

Yes, that's about the size of it.

This is my first m/m fandom that's become canon, and no, I was not expecting it either! Even when there were a few points there where Crowley was seriously stretching the plausible deniability of subtext. ;) I come from a generation where it didn't happen, period, and we were resigned to that. A lot of fans nowadays have a belief that these things will happen in canon, but I'm actually glad I didn't because it was such an exciting and wonderful surprise! They hit it out of the park with that scene! David's acting was phenomenal, and the script was perfection. It breaks my heart, and I still love it.

I'm spending my time watching fan vids on YouTube (where luckily, most of the fans feel the way I do) and reading some fix-its - but I don't really need them too much because I know their breakup is only temporary until S3 which will probably be better than fanfiction!! (and that simply doesn't happen normally).

I enjoyed S1, loved how cute they were together, and wrote a few fanfics but I didn't consider it a huge fandom for me. S2 changed all that. I'm now officially obsessed and I never saw that coming either. I haven't been into anything like this since longer than I care to say. I'm having the time of my life.

[kat_lair]

Your comment absolutely oozes with fandom love and it's so lovely to read. Good Omens is one of my favourite books and my first fic for this fandom was well before the TV series was even a rumour so to have this...

God, like you said I don't think younger fans/ppl understand what a big deal this was and honestly, I'm kinda of glad because it is a sign of progress. When I say I cried at this scene it was in part because of the heartbreak of it (agree, the acting was phenomenal) but mostly it was the emotional enormity of it happening in the first place.

[mxcatmoon]

Oh yes, it was emotional for that reason as well, to know that we now live in a world where it *can* happen. All the progress before was lovely, but here it is mainstream. It was something I'll never forget and wonderful to get to see.

I was thinking back over season one, and have to laugh at myself now for being surprised. It really was obvious. But I was oblivious to anything but subtext because I was conditioned to expect only that - no matter how blatant. (I remember an old show with Tony Randall where he was flat out supposed to be gay, only they weren't allowed to ever actually *say* it).

[quailfence]

I'd gotten spoiled for the kiss, but not the context/how exactly it happened, so I was still very !!! at that scene. Am also eagerly awaiting for third season - someone I saw on Tumblr or Discord or maybe even here compared it to Empire Strikes back in that it is very much the middle part. But still - cannot wait for s3

[kat_lair]

Hah, good comparison! I was completely unspoiled so it was an absolute full whack for me. S3 will be a wait with the strike but worth it.