SPN 2x21 & 2x22 All Hell Breaks Loose Parts 1&2

[kat_lair]

So I finally watched the last season finale two-parter os Supernatural the other night and I only have this to say:

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

*takes a deep breath* Okay, I just had to get it out of my system. I’m over it now and ready to talk about it calmly…

I lied. I totally lied. I’M NOT OVER IT AT ALL! 

I REFUSE TO TALK ABOUT IT CALMLY!

But I may dispense with the capslock to save your eyes…

 

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I can’t believe they killed both of my favourite minor characters! Oh Ash! Oh Andy! You will live on in the verse razorxrosary and I are writing, but still… *sobs brokenly*
 

And Holy Jesus am I glad that I waited to watch the episodes back to back because if I’d had to wait a week after the ending of part 1 I would have died and no kidding, because…
 

Sam dying in Dean’s arms.

Let me repeat that. 

Sam. Dying. In Dean’s arms.

Dean’s face. His broken heart and broken life, all coming to an end on some dirt road in the middle of nowhere. 

The camera pan up, showing them kneeling there like lost children in the dark and I cried, I freaking bawled like a baby, and I’m not even embarrassed to admit that because tell me that wasn’t the most painful scene you’ve seen.

 

And then. I saw it coming a mile off, but… Dean selling his soul to bring Sam back to life.

Let me repeat that too. 

Dean. Selling his soul. To bring Sam back to life.
 

And he wasn’t going to tell Sam, of course not. And for a while I thought Sam wouldn’t figure it out, but oh thank god he did. He did, and it almost broke him, but fuck if he isn’t going to save Dean’s ass, because “You’re my big brother. There is nothing I wouldn’t do for you.”

Other notable parts:

• “I like me some pie!”
• D. Hasselhoff!
• They made Ava evil! I did not see that coming at all!
• Andy projecting gay porn into peoples’ heads! Oh Andy, why did you have to die?? Whyyyyyyyyyyy?
• Ash. Burned to ashes. He would have appreciated the irony, but I just… don’t. For fuck’s sake I’m really pissed they killed him and Andy! Best minor characters ever! Argh!
• Bobby! Bobby is the epitome of awesome, and the scene between him and Dean in the junk yard when he’s shouting at Dean and Dean is just “please don’t tell Sam, do what you have to, but please don’t tell Sam”… And how Dean really has that low of an opinion of himself that the only way his life mattered if he gave it to save Sam’s. I cried. Again.
• John! That scene between the three Winchesters, and how no one said a word, because they didn’t have to, it was all there in their eyes. *blows nose*
• All the hugging (yes, omg, hugging!!! Finally!!) and crying and emotional monologues/conversations (the L-word!). It is a miracle I’m still able to function at all.
• The awesome special effects! Huge Devil’s Trap! Hellmouth Gateway opened!
• The ending! Mirroring the beginning! Dean’s smile!
• *dies* 

But most importantly: Sam. Dying. In Dean’s arms.

I’m not going to get over that for a while. If ever.

I need a goddamned emotional support group to cope, and guess what F-list, you’re it! Hand-holding and cups of tea and fluffy fics and chocolate cookies and picspams of happy times and possibly also lots of alcohol are required if you ever wish to see me sane again! 

*clings*