Bandom Ficlet: Pause

[kat_lair]

Happy Sunday, have a ficlet.



For pushkin666
 

Pause – Bandom – Ryan/Spencer – G – 272 words
Prompt: Old school Panic, caught in the rain



It’s still a novelty. After spending his whole life in the desert, the rain feels like an escape. Ryan tips his head back, letting is sluice down the long bare line of his throat. He’s soaked already, and oddly refreshed, can almost imagine leaves and flowers budding at the tips of his fingers.

“You’re thinking in metaphors again,” Spencer admonishes, his arms snaking around Ryan’s waist.

Ryan shrugs, a little self-deprecatingly. “Just wondering if the rain will make me grow,” he says, leaning back against Spencer’s chest. He’s had water and now there’s warmth; essentials of life. "Like plants or trees."

“Stop trying to grow up so fast,” Spender tells him, hooking his chin over Ryan’s shoulder. The wet strands of his hair tickle, clinging to Ryan’s face and neck, making him shudder a little from the sensation.

“We made it. We’re here. You can just... be, for a while. Enjoy it,” Spencer says.

The itch under Ryan’s skin is still there; the one that pushed him to do more, try harder, woke him up in the middle of the night, leaving him panting and terrified that it had all been a dream, that all his efforts hadn’t been good enough. That he hadn’t been good enough.

But right now Spencer is a solid steady presence at his back, keeping them both grounded in the here and now. “It’s okay to relax, Ryan,” he says. “We’ve got you. I’ve got you.”

The rain is slowing down to a gentle drizzle and above the roofs the sun is breaking free from behind the clouds. Ryan closes his eyes and lets Spencer hold him up.

Comments

[pushkin666.livejournal.com]

I love how you make me actually like Ryan. This is sweet and so very much how I like my Ryan and Spencer. Yay for old skool Panic.

[kat-lair.livejournal.com]

I have a soft spot for Ryan and his many issues. It was nice to write, thank you for the lovely prompt.

[pushkin666.livejournal.com]

I know you do hun which is why I gave you the pairing. :D

Nice icon btw.

[kat-lair.livejournal.com]

<3

[verbyna.livejournal.com]

This is beautiful.

[kat-lair.livejournal.com]

Aww, thank you so much.

[moth2fic.livejournal.com]

Niiiice!!! Very visual and I could almost feel the rain.

[kat-lair.livejournal.com]

Thank you :) This is one of my favourite Bandom pairings so it was lovely to revisit it.

[restlesslikeme.livejournal.com]

I have been so starved for this pairing, thank you.

[kat-lair.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean, it's certainly not one of the popular pairings. But definitely one of my favourites. Thank you for commenting, glad you enjoyed.

[margaret-r.livejournal.com]

Very nice:) Your descriptions are lovely, very real, make you feel the connection between the two boys.

[kat-lair.livejournal.com]

Aww, thank you so much. This is one of my favourite pairings in Bandom so it was a treat to write.

[amisophe.livejournal.com]

Oh, Ryan. I have a special place in my heart for this pairing and how they just work together, their history and their issues and just... ♥

[kat-lair.livejournal.com]

Oh man, me too. BFF pairings are always the OTPs of my heart in almost any fandom and in addition I totally identify with Ryan and his issues.

[amisophe.livejournal.com]

yes, exactly! His angst and need to belong and to be good enough, this relentless drive to escape and put himself out there with a simultaneous inability to open up...except to Spencer. Because Spencer's known him since forever and takes care of him and <3

[kat-lair.livejournal.com]

I'm nodding earnestly at all of that :)

[desfinado.livejournal.com]

Oh this was GORGEOUS.

He’s soaked already, and oddly refreshed, can almost imagine leaves and flowers budding at the tips of his fingers.

I felt that right there with him. Nearly shook my own head dry when I came out the other end. ♥ Thanks for sharing!

[kat-lair.livejournal.com]

Late reply is late but you know why :)

Thank you so much! It is such a treat to get a comment on an old fic and I'm thrilled you liked this. I've got a soft spot for Ryan probably because I identify with him a lot in various ways so writing him is always both easy and hard if you know what I mean. Anyway, and you go quoting stuff back at me when you know that makes me squirm with pleasure :D Thank you, bb!