Oh, you should see some of the other junk I've got floating around in my cranium; scarily enough this fic fits right in there, ha...Seriously, call me a weirdo but sometimes I really like having a darker, really angsty fic to ruminate over and sort of indulge the darker side of my fandom nature. After all, ultimately I always invent a happier closure in my head for the boys at the end of it all cause I'm a strange mix of being a hopeful pessimist, if that makes any sense, ha! I want my boys to be together and safe and at peace with themselves and the universe at the end, but yeah, there's that strangely seductive and sadistic route of suffering on the way to getting there. Maybe I should go on medication, ha...