Jon-as-public-service top makes me nod in agreement. It's almost like... he knows all the words to that play even if this isn't exactly his part.
I can see Brendon not just craving but amplifying his experiences with his willingness to embrace with his entirety whatever is being demanded of him. To wholesale donate his surrender at the first hint that it might be requested. - and we can see this in the way he throws himself into his music, performing, interviews etc. E.g. with Ryan you can always see that he's keeping a part of himself back, it's more of a public front he's putting forward on stage or during interviews. With Brendon it's just Brendon. All of him, nothing held back. It's like he wants to throw himself off the cliff just to have someone see him, to have someone care enough to catch him.
And Pete... don't know if you've seen this, but buried in a comment thread somewhere above is a link to an excellent piece of meta about power dynamics between Pete and Patrick. go check it out (http://linzeems.livejournal.com/1252567.html), it rings very true to me.
I completely agree about what you said Pete being a complete train wreck on the scene. Because Pete is not a player, he would only hit the scene because that's the only way he could think to get what he needs. But what he would get is the physical side of things sure, but that's only the surface and he would crave more and more. I can totally see him escalating into some pretty dangerous edge-play looking for something that none of it can actually give him. Because Pete isn't a "weekend sub" in it for the sex and thrills, it's much more fundamental to his personality. What he needs is stability, and none of these casual hook-ups, no matter how intense physically can give him that. Patrick can.
This Spencer/Ryan scenario intrigues me immensely... because yeah, Ryan is smart, he's complex and so fucking devious that he would probably manage to fool even himself about what was really going on... (And thanks, glad you liked my fic!)
Re: Anyone/Brendon but probably Jon. Or Patrick.
I can see Brendon not just craving but amplifying his experiences with his willingness to embrace with his entirety whatever is being demanded of him. To wholesale donate his surrender at the first hint that it might be requested. - and we can see this in the way he throws himself into his music, performing, interviews etc. E.g. with Ryan you can always see that he's keeping a part of himself back, it's more of a public front he's putting forward on stage or during interviews. With Brendon it's just Brendon. All of him, nothing held back. It's like he wants to throw himself off the cliff just to have someone see him, to have someone care enough to catch him.
And Pete... don't know if you've seen this, but buried in a comment thread somewhere above is a link to an excellent piece of meta about power dynamics between Pete and Patrick. go check it out (http://linzeems.livejournal.com/1252567.html), it rings very true to me.
I completely agree about what you said Pete being a complete train wreck on the scene. Because Pete is not a player, he would only hit the scene because that's the only way he could think to get what he needs. But what he would get is the physical side of things sure, but that's only the surface and he would crave more and more. I can totally see him escalating into some pretty dangerous edge-play looking for something that none of it can actually give him. Because Pete isn't a "weekend sub" in it for the sex and thrills, it's much more fundamental to his personality. What he needs is stability, and none of these casual hook-ups, no matter how intense physically can give him that. Patrick can.
This Spencer/Ryan scenario intrigues me immensely... because yeah, Ryan is smart, he's complex and so fucking devious that he would probably manage to fool even himself about what was really going on... (And thanks, glad you liked my fic!)